Over the past few days I've had a bad cough and today I have lost my voice. This is bad because I have a Halloween party to go to tonight so I'm not going to try to talk for the next eight hours and I'm going to drink lots and do some steam inhalation to get my voice back. Hopefully I'll get it back for the party. That's not the point though. You see, losing my voice got me thinking about all the things we take for granted, like speaking for instance. I am one of those types of people who talk all the time, and way too much. I don't even think about talking, I'm never thinking "oh gosh talking is so amazing! I am so grateful I can talk!" Because talking is just something that most people can do and you just don't think anything of it. However, losing my voice has made me appreciate it a lot more.
There are lots of other things we all take for granted too. Like food, family, education, our homes. These things have always just been there and so we just assume that they always will be. We aren't grateful enough for them, even though some of them are key to our survival. We take them for granted. There are people out there who don't have some of these things. They don't take them for granted because they're things that these people don't have very often. We don't understand what it's like to not have enough food or have no education because these things come so easily to us.
I feel like I should be more grateful for the things I have. I wish everyone had what I have. It makes me sad to think of children starving to death in other countries while we sit here eating as much as we want.
Claire x
Thursday, 31 October 2013
Sunday, 27 October 2013
Sponsored Walk
On Friday, my whole school done a sponsored walk. None of us really had a choice, but we didn't mind too much. It was all good at first. Me and my friend Lish drew cat whiskers on our faces and I wore my llama hat (are we getting a theme here?) and it was all fun and games at first. However, after about three hours of walking, we all started to feel a little tired. I'm not even sure how long it took for us to walk it, but I do know that me and my friends were some of the last people to finish it. This may have been because our bus was one of the last busses to arrive or it may just be because we're lazy. By the end of it everyone's legs hurt and we were all moaning about it.
My arms also hurt. Now this was because in the morning me and my friend Amy decided that we would volunteer to help carry some computer monitors across the school, up the stairs and into the class room. It was perfectly fine until we saw the boys carrying two. Now, being a competitive person, I agreed with Amy to take two monitors. Turns out, we weren't really strong enough to carry two. Amy also decided that she would admit to the boys that we weren't strong enough. They laughed at us and one of them had to hold the doors open for us. To make it worse, my crush was one of the boys who had carried two and I looked like a weak pathetic little girl in front of him.
Overall Friday wasn't too bad I suppose. My legs still ache but I'm hoping they'll feel better soon. I'm off to a buffet at my grandparents soon, I hope you all have a lovely afternoon.
Claire :)
My arms also hurt. Now this was because in the morning me and my friend Amy decided that we would volunteer to help carry some computer monitors across the school, up the stairs and into the class room. It was perfectly fine until we saw the boys carrying two. Now, being a competitive person, I agreed with Amy to take two monitors. Turns out, we weren't really strong enough to carry two. Amy also decided that she would admit to the boys that we weren't strong enough. They laughed at us and one of them had to hold the doors open for us. To make it worse, my crush was one of the boys who had carried two and I looked like a weak pathetic little girl in front of him.
Overall Friday wasn't too bad I suppose. My legs still ache but I'm hoping they'll feel better soon. I'm off to a buffet at my grandparents soon, I hope you all have a lovely afternoon.
Claire :)
Halloween
I've been invited to a Halloween party this year and I'm quite looking forward to it. However, I have no idea what I am going to be for Halloween! I don't actually have a Halloween costume yet so I'm going to have to get something on Tuesday. I'm probably going to go for something simple as I'm not very rich but I'm going to try to look good. I'm a little worried about the party as I know there is going to be alcohol and I've never really got properly drunk before, but I'm hoping that my friends will make sure I don't drink too much. Obviously I won't be telling my parents that there will be alcohol because they're a bit protective of me.
As it's halloween, I have a half term which means I have a week off. I'm supposed to be going round my friend lish's tomorrow but first of all it depends on this storm that will be happening over night and secondly I'm really scared that I've caught another cold as I keep coughing. Hopefully everything will be ok and I'll go and see her tomorrow as planned. I'm going to the city with my mum and my sister on Tuesday. I'll be seeing my zero best friend and lots of my other friends on Wednesday, the Halloween party is on Thursday and apparently we'll all be crashing at Eddie's on Thursday night so I won't leave till Friday. This is going to be such a busy week. But it will be worth it. As long as I don't get ill.
I hope you all have a great Halloween, don't eat too many sweets! Have a nice day!
Claire :)
As it's halloween, I have a half term which means I have a week off. I'm supposed to be going round my friend lish's tomorrow but first of all it depends on this storm that will be happening over night and secondly I'm really scared that I've caught another cold as I keep coughing. Hopefully everything will be ok and I'll go and see her tomorrow as planned. I'm going to the city with my mum and my sister on Tuesday. I'll be seeing my zero best friend and lots of my other friends on Wednesday, the Halloween party is on Thursday and apparently we'll all be crashing at Eddie's on Thursday night so I won't leave till Friday. This is going to be such a busy week. But it will be worth it. As long as I don't get ill.
I hope you all have a great Halloween, don't eat too many sweets! Have a nice day!
Claire :)
Sunday, 20 October 2013
Stories
I love stories. I just think they're amazing. I guess that's why I love books so much. I love the way a story can take you to a whole other world, with different people and places. The way they can make you feel, from excited to devastated. It's truly wonderful. It's like an escape. You just kind of forget about the real world and what's going on in your life. You become wrapped up in this imaginary person's life. Worrying about their problems and feeling their emotions.
When the story is really good, it will distract you for hours. Even after you've put the book down again. All the mysteries and problems the characters are facing will echo through your mind, causing you to try to come up with solutions and plans. Making it very difficult to concentrate on your own life. You'll just want to go back to the book to find out how the story ends.
I love the way you become so attached to the characters. Feeling happy when they're happy, crying when one dies. Always rooting for the good guys and hating the bads guys. Completely falling in love with some of the most amazing characters, wishing they were real people. Sometimes you feel as though the world in the book is so much better than the real world and you'll spend hours pondering and wondering what things would be like if you were a character in the book.
But I hate that feeling, when the story finally comes to an end. When you reach the last page of the book. Knowing that the adventure is over. Your life forever changed by one incredible story. You have to go back to your own life, move on from the characters and the places in your book. But they always remain there, in the back of your mind, just waiting for you to read the book again.
Claire :)
When the story is really good, it will distract you for hours. Even after you've put the book down again. All the mysteries and problems the characters are facing will echo through your mind, causing you to try to come up with solutions and plans. Making it very difficult to concentrate on your own life. You'll just want to go back to the book to find out how the story ends.
I love the way you become so attached to the characters. Feeling happy when they're happy, crying when one dies. Always rooting for the good guys and hating the bads guys. Completely falling in love with some of the most amazing characters, wishing they were real people. Sometimes you feel as though the world in the book is so much better than the real world and you'll spend hours pondering and wondering what things would be like if you were a character in the book.
But I hate that feeling, when the story finally comes to an end. When you reach the last page of the book. Knowing that the adventure is over. Your life forever changed by one incredible story. You have to go back to your own life, move on from the characters and the places in your book. But they always remain there, in the back of your mind, just waiting for you to read the book again.
Claire :)
Jobs
I need a job. The trouble is I can't find one. Well, I've tried applying to lots of different places, but it seems that no one wants me. I would like a retail job for weekends, but most places want full time workers or not weekend workers. I want a job because I need money to buy things. I keep seeing loads of stuff I want and I can't buy it. It's getting depressing. I hate actually doing work but if I get money for doing it then I suppose it's worth it.
Lots of my friends have jobs now and I feel like I'm never going to get one. It's not like I got bad grades, I actually done pretty well at my GCSEs. Why don't they want me? Probably because I'm not very attractive so customers will run away, or maybe it's because I'm so antisocial that it puts people off. I hate talking to people. And retail means that I have to talk to people. So it's going to be horrible when I finally do get a job. That's why I've applied for places that don't get too many customers, that way I don't have to talk to too many people.
I feel like I have this list in my head of all the things I am going to buy when I finally have a job. Thinking about it makes me really excited to get a job. But there's still the issue of no one wanting to hire me. I guess I just have to keep trying till I find a company that are really desperate, so desperate that they'll hire me! I just want money guys.
Claire :)
Lots of my friends have jobs now and I feel like I'm never going to get one. It's not like I got bad grades, I actually done pretty well at my GCSEs. Why don't they want me? Probably because I'm not very attractive so customers will run away, or maybe it's because I'm so antisocial that it puts people off. I hate talking to people. And retail means that I have to talk to people. So it's going to be horrible when I finally do get a job. That's why I've applied for places that don't get too many customers, that way I don't have to talk to too many people.
I feel like I have this list in my head of all the things I am going to buy when I finally have a job. Thinking about it makes me really excited to get a job. But there's still the issue of no one wanting to hire me. I guess I just have to keep trying till I find a company that are really desperate, so desperate that they'll hire me! I just want money guys.
Claire :)
My crush
This is the story of my crush. For the purposes of keeping his identity a secret I will be calling him "what what" which is the nickname my friends came up with for him. So I started liking him about a year ago and at the time I was still with my ex boyfriend (the one who was a jerk) but then when we broke up I dint feel so bad about liking "what what". I remember, it was a week in December, near my birthday, and my friend asked one of his friends if he liked anyone and then she came straight back to me afterwards and his friend guessed that I liked "what what". Therefore his friend decided that he would tell him that I liked him. I never denied it but for some reason he never believed it.
My best friend made a joke saying that he'd be at my birthday party. He was. Not because I invited him. We were bowling and he was at the same place watching the football. This creeped me out in so many ways. Then the year went on. I'd talk to him every now and again, he started calling me "pug" god knows why though. It became our thing. He'd always call me a pug whenever he saw me and I'd always tell him to shut up and that it wasn't funny (now when he says "hi pug" I just say "hi" back I don't bother telling him to shut up because he won't). My friends always tell me that it's really obvious that I like him, so he either already knows that I like him or he's really stupid.
Anyway, from September I discovered that he's in my psychology class at sixth form so I get to spend another two years with him. My friends seem to think that he might like me back but I'm pretty sure he doesn't. He's one of those people who just talks to anyone, I have his number though but that's only because he felt sorry for me because I barely have any contacts on my phone haha. My friend Elli is persistent on saying that we "flirt" with each other, but I will continue to deny that.
So that's the story of my crush. We will never be together because he is too good for me. Plus we're like complete opposites, he is sporty and I am one of the laziest people on the planet, he's friendly and I'm really antisocial. But I'll update you if anything ever does happen. Thanks for reading, have a nice day.
Claire :)
My best friend made a joke saying that he'd be at my birthday party. He was. Not because I invited him. We were bowling and he was at the same place watching the football. This creeped me out in so many ways. Then the year went on. I'd talk to him every now and again, he started calling me "pug" god knows why though. It became our thing. He'd always call me a pug whenever he saw me and I'd always tell him to shut up and that it wasn't funny (now when he says "hi pug" I just say "hi" back I don't bother telling him to shut up because he won't). My friends always tell me that it's really obvious that I like him, so he either already knows that I like him or he's really stupid.
Anyway, from September I discovered that he's in my psychology class at sixth form so I get to spend another two years with him. My friends seem to think that he might like me back but I'm pretty sure he doesn't. He's one of those people who just talks to anyone, I have his number though but that's only because he felt sorry for me because I barely have any contacts on my phone haha. My friend Elli is persistent on saying that we "flirt" with each other, but I will continue to deny that.
So that's the story of my crush. We will never be together because he is too good for me. Plus we're like complete opposites, he is sporty and I am one of the laziest people on the planet, he's friendly and I'm really antisocial. But I'll update you if anything ever does happen. Thanks for reading, have a nice day.
Claire :)
Thursday, 17 October 2013
Self harm
This is a really sensitive subject, and quite personal to me. I know that there are actually a lot of people who are going through this so I thought that I would post my thoughts about it.
As someone who is actually currently trying to cope with self harm I understand what it's like. I obviously won't know exactly what other people are going through, as everyone has their own reasons. But I have an idea. I have personally experienced the feeling of wanting to cause physical pain on myself. I have sat in my room at 2am with a blade in my hand just wanting to end everything. I am not the type of person who is very good at talking about my feelings, especially about this, but I want to share my story in order to maybe try to help other people feeling similar.
My self harming started when I was in middle school. I was very badly bullied, by practically everyone in my year. I had no friends and I would sit inside in the classroom at break time instead of going outside because I didn't want to face the other students. I began scratching my arms, not severely. I didn't even know what self harming was back then. I just felt miserable and believed the things that the bullies told me, so I hurt myself as a way to 'punish' myself for not being good enough. This was where it began.
Once I started high school I stopped for about three years before starting again when I was in year 9. Again I was being bullied, not as badly as before but it would remind me that I'm not good enough and made me believe that I was never going to fit in or be accepted by anyone. It led to a lot of self hatred. The small, insignificant scratches became deeper scratches that would bleed sometimes. I was 13 and I had begun to completely despise myself. My parents eventually found out and tried to get me help. A woman would visit me every week or so to try to help me, but to be honest she didn't really help so I just lied and told her that I had stopped and she eventually stopped seeing me. I never did actually stop, but I went on and off for the next few years.
The next really bad time for me was last year, when I broke up with my ex boyfriend. Since he had, as I saw it, "dumped me for one of my best friends" I felt this worthlessness all over again. As if I wasn't good enough. This slowly led up to me going into practically a complete depression, or at least that's how it felt to me. I suppose I still feel that way now. Constantly hating myself and feeling like I'm not good enough so I self harm. To take away whatever pain I feel inside, to distract me from the hatred I have for myself, to feel in control. The damage I do has become worse over the years and I'm now pretty sure I'm scarred in several places. These will be constant reminders of what I felt.
I feel as though I'm too fat, too ugly, not smart enough, not funny enough, just not good enough. I hate every inch of myself. It's a horrible feeling that I wish would go away. But I know that if I want to feel better then it's going to take time. I am currently awaiting a letter that will be starting off my journey towards feeling better and ending my self harm. I am one of those lucky people who have wonderful friends and family who are there to support them. It's going to be a tough journey, but I know that in the long run I will end up feeling much happier.
I won't go into any more detail about how I feel as I don't want this to be too triggering and as I said, I don't like talking about it. If this post does help anyone, anyone at all then I will be really glad. And if you aren't suffering yourself, but you know someone who is then you need to know that you should just treat them as normal and whatever you do don't make them promise that they'll stop because it's the worst thing you could say. Thanks for reading, have a good day.
Claire :)
As someone who is actually currently trying to cope with self harm I understand what it's like. I obviously won't know exactly what other people are going through, as everyone has their own reasons. But I have an idea. I have personally experienced the feeling of wanting to cause physical pain on myself. I have sat in my room at 2am with a blade in my hand just wanting to end everything. I am not the type of person who is very good at talking about my feelings, especially about this, but I want to share my story in order to maybe try to help other people feeling similar.
My self harming started when I was in middle school. I was very badly bullied, by practically everyone in my year. I had no friends and I would sit inside in the classroom at break time instead of going outside because I didn't want to face the other students. I began scratching my arms, not severely. I didn't even know what self harming was back then. I just felt miserable and believed the things that the bullies told me, so I hurt myself as a way to 'punish' myself for not being good enough. This was where it began.
Once I started high school I stopped for about three years before starting again when I was in year 9. Again I was being bullied, not as badly as before but it would remind me that I'm not good enough and made me believe that I was never going to fit in or be accepted by anyone. It led to a lot of self hatred. The small, insignificant scratches became deeper scratches that would bleed sometimes. I was 13 and I had begun to completely despise myself. My parents eventually found out and tried to get me help. A woman would visit me every week or so to try to help me, but to be honest she didn't really help so I just lied and told her that I had stopped and she eventually stopped seeing me. I never did actually stop, but I went on and off for the next few years.
The next really bad time for me was last year, when I broke up with my ex boyfriend. Since he had, as I saw it, "dumped me for one of my best friends" I felt this worthlessness all over again. As if I wasn't good enough. This slowly led up to me going into practically a complete depression, or at least that's how it felt to me. I suppose I still feel that way now. Constantly hating myself and feeling like I'm not good enough so I self harm. To take away whatever pain I feel inside, to distract me from the hatred I have for myself, to feel in control. The damage I do has become worse over the years and I'm now pretty sure I'm scarred in several places. These will be constant reminders of what I felt.
I feel as though I'm too fat, too ugly, not smart enough, not funny enough, just not good enough. I hate every inch of myself. It's a horrible feeling that I wish would go away. But I know that if I want to feel better then it's going to take time. I am currently awaiting a letter that will be starting off my journey towards feeling better and ending my self harm. I am one of those lucky people who have wonderful friends and family who are there to support them. It's going to be a tough journey, but I know that in the long run I will end up feeling much happier.
I won't go into any more detail about how I feel as I don't want this to be too triggering and as I said, I don't like talking about it. If this post does help anyone, anyone at all then I will be really glad. And if you aren't suffering yourself, but you know someone who is then you need to know that you should just treat them as normal and whatever you do don't make them promise that they'll stop because it's the worst thing you could say. Thanks for reading, have a good day.
Claire :)
Zero Best Friend
This post is about my best friend. Paige. We met when we were in year 8, forming a friendship over laughing at our other friend Lish. We were really good friends till about year 10 when we slowly became best friends. Like all other best friends we had silly private jokes that no one else would understand (England, vampire friend, what what, gods gift, etc) and we got along like a house on fire. Most of the time when we were together I would talk and she would laugh at me and complain about me talking too much. People would say that we were 'joint at the hip' because we spent so much time together. There was this guy in several of our lessons and some how I decided that he was her 'best friend' aka her 'vampire friend'. This resulted to me becoming her 'zero best friend' which actually felt quite appropriate really because it was like saying that I was more than her best friend, more like a sister, which was how it felt. Paige is one of those antisocial, rude people who doesn't care what other people thought. She is one of those peope who can always make you laugh no matter what.
When we finished high school, we both had to go our separate ways. I went to sixth form and she went to college. This meant that our time together was cut right down. It's times like these that make you realise how much a person means to you and words cannot describe how much I miss my best friend. Sometimes it feels like she may no longer be my best friend, but the minute I talk to her or think about old times together I know that no one will ever replace her and she will always be my zero best friend.
Claire :)
When we finished high school, we both had to go our separate ways. I went to sixth form and she went to college. This meant that our time together was cut right down. It's times like these that make you realise how much a person means to you and words cannot describe how much I miss my best friend. Sometimes it feels like she may no longer be my best friend, but the minute I talk to her or think about old times together I know that no one will ever replace her and she will always be my zero best friend.
Claire :)
Wednesday, 16 October 2013
Obsessions
We've all got our own obsessions, some have more than others. I am one of those people with a lot of obsessions, so I thought I'd share them with you all! :)
1. One direction - I know this makes me sound like a typical teenage girl but I do really like them, mostly their music because I heard one thing and I was like "oh I wonder who sings this?"
2. 5SOS - I have posted about these four Australian idiots before, they're an amazing band and I love them!
3. The Vampire Diaries - I share this obsession with my good friend lish (check out her blog http://allaboutmealiciaf.blogspot.co.uk ) and we are constantly obsessing over all the hot guys in the show! ;)
4. Youtubers - this consists of danisnotonfire, amazingphil, kickthepj, crabstickz, zoella, sprinkleofgliter, Shane Dawson, Joey Graceffa, pewdiepie, Marcus Butler, Troye Sivan, Tyler Oakley, and so many more!
5. All Time Low - such an awesome band, I love them!
6. Death Note - an anime series, it's Japanese but obviously I watch the English dubbed ones, and it's amazing! I love L so much!
7. Blink 182 - no words can describe how amazing they are (my music taste vary quite a lot going from 1D to Blink haha)
8. Notebooks - ok so I have like ten billion notebooks and I just love them, I don't even care what I use them for, I will never have enough notebooks!
9. Harry Potter - love the films, currently reading the books (which I'm finding difficult because I never have much spare time)
10. Warehouse 13 - a awesom tv series that I am waiting to come back for the next season!
11. The internet - this meaning twitter, blogging, tumblr, Pinterest, YouTube and loads more!
I think I'm going to stop here, because I could go on and on about all my obsessions. It sounds quite bad that I am obsessed with so many things, but these things make me happy and there is nothing wrong with that! If you are obsessed to loads of things too then embrace it and don't let anyone tell you that you can't have that many obsessions because it's your life and you can obsess over what evr you want!
Claire :)
1. One direction - I know this makes me sound like a typical teenage girl but I do really like them, mostly their music because I heard one thing and I was like "oh I wonder who sings this?"
2. 5SOS - I have posted about these four Australian idiots before, they're an amazing band and I love them!
3. The Vampire Diaries - I share this obsession with my good friend lish (check out her blog http://allaboutmealiciaf.blogspot.co.uk ) and we are constantly obsessing over all the hot guys in the show! ;)
4. Youtubers - this consists of danisnotonfire, amazingphil, kickthepj, crabstickz, zoella, sprinkleofgliter, Shane Dawson, Joey Graceffa, pewdiepie, Marcus Butler, Troye Sivan, Tyler Oakley, and so many more!
5. All Time Low - such an awesome band, I love them!
6. Death Note - an anime series, it's Japanese but obviously I watch the English dubbed ones, and it's amazing! I love L so much!
7. Blink 182 - no words can describe how amazing they are (my music taste vary quite a lot going from 1D to Blink haha)
8. Notebooks - ok so I have like ten billion notebooks and I just love them, I don't even care what I use them for, I will never have enough notebooks!
9. Harry Potter - love the films, currently reading the books (which I'm finding difficult because I never have much spare time)
10. Warehouse 13 - a awesom tv series that I am waiting to come back for the next season!
11. The internet - this meaning twitter, blogging, tumblr, Pinterest, YouTube and loads more!
I think I'm going to stop here, because I could go on and on about all my obsessions. It sounds quite bad that I am obsessed with so many things, but these things make me happy and there is nothing wrong with that! If you are obsessed to loads of things too then embrace it and don't let anyone tell you that you can't have that many obsessions because it's your life and you can obsess over what evr you want!
Claire :)
The future
I had this really interesting thought today. I was just sitting on the bus when I wondered "what will I be like in 10 years?" It's a typical question that a lot of people ask themselves. I ask myself this quite often, but sometimes I change my mind. For example, earlier this year I was sure that I would do art and photography at sixth form, then university and become a photographer. But now I am doing sociology, psychology and maths, which I'll probably continue something similar in university then possibly be a detective. However, sometimes, I really just don't know where I'll be in ten years time. I know that I want to go to university, but will I ever actually make it? I know I want to move to London, but will I? I just don't know. I won't know until I get there. What I do know, is that I have to work my way there, which means I have to start now.
You never know what your future will hold. You'll change your mind so many times and sometimes you won't achieve what you were hoping for. But if you do want something bad enough, you have to work for it, and you have to start now. Especially for things like University, you'll need the right grades to get in and if you don't work hard now then you'll never get them. But no matter what you want to achieve in life, don't give up. Keep trying to achieve your goal, and if you work hard enough, then it will happen and you will succeed.
But try not to worry too much about what's going to happen to you in the future, or you'll spend your whole life worrying. Just live in the now. Think about what you're doing right now, not what you'll be doing in ten years. And always remember to just do whatever makes you happy.
Claire :)
You never know what your future will hold. You'll change your mind so many times and sometimes you won't achieve what you were hoping for. But if you do want something bad enough, you have to work for it, and you have to start now. Especially for things like University, you'll need the right grades to get in and if you don't work hard now then you'll never get them. But no matter what you want to achieve in life, don't give up. Keep trying to achieve your goal, and if you work hard enough, then it will happen and you will succeed.
But try not to worry too much about what's going to happen to you in the future, or you'll spend your whole life worrying. Just live in the now. Think about what you're doing right now, not what you'll be doing in ten years. And always remember to just do whatever makes you happy.
Claire :)
The joys of being ill
So, for the past few days I've been really quite ill. Therefore I thought I'd tell you about all the fun things to do when you are ill!
1. You can sit in bed all day. As you are ill, you have an excuse to just stay in bed and not do anything!
2. You can watch your favourite tv show all day! (I watch Death Note for two days straight)
3. You get days off school (unless you've left school or are doing exams or something in which case it's probably better that you go to school)
4. You can give your wonderful illness to all the people that you don't like!
5. You can...oh, there aren't anymore things.
As you can see, being ill is not particualrly fun at all. I just stayed in bed all through the weekend watching death note and YouTube videos until Monday. I had to go to sixth form on Monday and it was horrible because I was still really ill and I just wanted to go home and sleep but no, I had to do maths instead! But I am getting better now. At the end of the day, I was only ill for a little while.
If you are currently ill too, or get ill over the next few days, I wish you luck in getting better. It's inevitable that I'll get ill again though because it's winter and I'm in the uk. Thanks for reading all you wonderful people (by people I mean like the two people who actually read my posts) and I hope you have a good day!
Claire :)
Saturday, 5 October 2013
Size
Ok so this post is about something very important to me. It's about size. I'm not talking about the size of a house or a book, I'm talking about the size of a person. How many people think that they are fat? How many people wish they were skinnier? How many people think they're too skinny?
Our society has become so obsessed with being this 'perfect weight'. But to be honest it's a load of rubbish. No one is too fat or too skinny. Everybody is different. Being different is being unique, which is a good thing. It's not about how much you weigh or what size your jeans are. It's about the person you are inside. I know it's difficult to believe that these days because everyone is pressuring you to look a certain way, but you you are beautiful. Just they way you are. The only 'ugly' people in the world are the ones who are calling you "too fat" or "too skinny". Everyone else is perfect in their own way.
If you aren't happy with your weight then do something about it. Don't do anything stupid like starving yourself because that will only make it worse. Just make small changes to your diet and work at a slow pace. But never think that you are fat and ugly because you can be a size 18 and be beautiful, or you can be a size 6 and be beautiful. The only people who will tell you that you aren't, are the people who will always be ugly.
I am so sick of hearing some people calling other people really fat or too skinny. You have no right to judge other people. Everyone is different and you need to get over it. People are different sizes, you can't use it as an excuse to be mean. These people have feelings too and you're hurting them. They are happy so stop finding things, like their size, to put them down.
It's mostly teenage girls that worry about their weight. I'm here to tell you that you don't need to worry. You are perfect just the way you are. If you're happy then just go with it. Don't worry about what other people think because chances are, they're worrying about the exact same thing. So stop obsessing over your weight, you're beautiful and you have to try to believe that.
Claire :)
Our society has become so obsessed with being this 'perfect weight'. But to be honest it's a load of rubbish. No one is too fat or too skinny. Everybody is different. Being different is being unique, which is a good thing. It's not about how much you weigh or what size your jeans are. It's about the person you are inside. I know it's difficult to believe that these days because everyone is pressuring you to look a certain way, but you you are beautiful. Just they way you are. The only 'ugly' people in the world are the ones who are calling you "too fat" or "too skinny". Everyone else is perfect in their own way.
If you aren't happy with your weight then do something about it. Don't do anything stupid like starving yourself because that will only make it worse. Just make small changes to your diet and work at a slow pace. But never think that you are fat and ugly because you can be a size 18 and be beautiful, or you can be a size 6 and be beautiful. The only people who will tell you that you aren't, are the people who will always be ugly.
I am so sick of hearing some people calling other people really fat or too skinny. You have no right to judge other people. Everyone is different and you need to get over it. People are different sizes, you can't use it as an excuse to be mean. These people have feelings too and you're hurting them. They are happy so stop finding things, like their size, to put them down.
It's mostly teenage girls that worry about their weight. I'm here to tell you that you don't need to worry. You are perfect just the way you are. If you're happy then just go with it. Don't worry about what other people think because chances are, they're worrying about the exact same thing. So stop obsessing over your weight, you're beautiful and you have to try to believe that.
Claire :)
Thursday, 3 October 2013
My jerk of an ex boyfriend
Just a little story about my horrible ex boyfriend. Hopefully you will find a use of my failure with this guy who was a complete jerk (I don't know if I'm allowed to swear on here so I'll just say jerk which is an understatement) and well...oh just read it and you'll understand.
That jerk who dumped me for one of my best friends.
If the massive writing didn't give away what my first proper boyfriend was like then I don't know what will. Ok, so his name was Aj (what a stupid name) and he was about a year and a half older than me. I met him through a friend when I was about 13 and I developed a little bit of a crush on him (I look back now and wonder why though because he was not particularly attractive). He didn't actually ask me out until he had actually left school by which point I was 15. He asked me over Facebook and we went to the cinema. It was alright but I felt like we had nothing in common. After a few dates he began cancelling on me all the time. He once cancelled three of our dates in the matter of a week. Soon after this we broke up. I wasn't too upset when it ended because I didn't really feel like it was working, plus the fact that he kept cancelling our dates made me think that something weird was going on.
About a week after Aj and I broke up I received a Facebook message from him, revealing that he had been dating one of my best friends in secret since we broke up. This was the thing that made me break down into tears. Ironically, Breakeven by the Script was playing the moment I found out and it felt like a scene from a movie. I then texted my friend to ask her if it was true and she confirmed that it was. It wasn't the fact that she went out with him that upset me the most, it was that she didn't even tell me and when I was with him she was one of the ones who told me that I should end it with him.
But that is all history. My friend and I are still friends now, we've both moved on. I kind of see it as a life lesson now, that even the people closest to you will still hurt you and some guys are just complete jerks.
Anyway, thanks for reading about my lovely failure of a love life, have a nice day!
Claire :)
That jerk who dumped me for one of my best friends.
If the massive writing didn't give away what my first proper boyfriend was like then I don't know what will. Ok, so his name was Aj (what a stupid name) and he was about a year and a half older than me. I met him through a friend when I was about 13 and I developed a little bit of a crush on him (I look back now and wonder why though because he was not particularly attractive). He didn't actually ask me out until he had actually left school by which point I was 15. He asked me over Facebook and we went to the cinema. It was alright but I felt like we had nothing in common. After a few dates he began cancelling on me all the time. He once cancelled three of our dates in the matter of a week. Soon after this we broke up. I wasn't too upset when it ended because I didn't really feel like it was working, plus the fact that he kept cancelling our dates made me think that something weird was going on.
About a week after Aj and I broke up I received a Facebook message from him, revealing that he had been dating one of my best friends in secret since we broke up. This was the thing that made me break down into tears. Ironically, Breakeven by the Script was playing the moment I found out and it felt like a scene from a movie. I then texted my friend to ask her if it was true and she confirmed that it was. It wasn't the fact that she went out with him that upset me the most, it was that she didn't even tell me and when I was with him she was one of the ones who told me that I should end it with him.
But that is all history. My friend and I are still friends now, we've both moved on. I kind of see it as a life lesson now, that even the people closest to you will still hurt you and some guys are just complete jerks.
Anyway, thanks for reading about my lovely failure of a love life, have a nice day!
Claire :)
Wednesday, 2 October 2013
5SOS
Ok, so there is a band called 5 seconds of summer (or 5sos) who are a rock/pop band. They're Australian, there are four members: Ashton Irwin, Michael Clifford, Luke Hemmings and Calum Hood. They are currently touring with One Direction and they are insanely talented. I have become very obsessed with them, it's become really unhealthy for me. I am constantly listening to their music and talking about them. To be honest with you, they're just four Australian weirdos who are extremely talented.
Michael Clifford is my favourite member. He's currently 17, 18 in November, and he plays lead guitar. He is constantly dying his hair different colours, it is bright blue right now. He loves pizza and playing video games and he loves Blink 182 (who are awesome). My friends and family always tease me about liking him but it just makes me like him even more.
I recently got my friend, Lish, to like them too. She originally didn't think she would like them because she doesn't really like One Direction but she does like them. Her favourite is Ashton and I am so proud that she finally likes them too because now we can fangirl together!
If you have never listened to any of 5 seconds of summer's music then you really should because they are ridiculously talented! Thanks for reading, have a nice day!
Claire :)
Michael Clifford is my favourite member. He's currently 17, 18 in November, and he plays lead guitar. He is constantly dying his hair different colours, it is bright blue right now. He loves pizza and playing video games and he loves Blink 182 (who are awesome). My friends and family always tease me about liking him but it just makes me like him even more.
I recently got my friend, Lish, to like them too. She originally didn't think she would like them because she doesn't really like One Direction but she does like them. Her favourite is Ashton and I am so proud that she finally likes them too because now we can fangirl together!
If you have never listened to any of 5 seconds of summer's music then you really should because they are ridiculously talented! Thanks for reading, have a nice day!
Claire :)
Hello World
Hello random people who just happened to stumble upon my blog, or people who I have somewhat forced into reading my blog. My name is Claire. I am British, from Norfolk although I don't have a Norfolk accent, I am too posh. I am 16 years old, but I'm sure that will change on the 9th December (if you didn't guess that's my birthday...send me a present!) and I am currently in sixth form studying sociology, psychology and maths.
So that's me. I'm not a very interesting person. I spend most of my time at sixth form, fangirling, listening to music, watching YouTube videos and being a total loser. I'm going to try posting every day, but chances are I will forget because I have the memory of a goldfish. If you like my blog then... What do you do on this site? I don't know, retweet? Like? Subscribe? Whatever you do when you like a blog I think you should do it. Thanks for reading, if you did actually read this!
Claire :)
So that's me. I'm not a very interesting person. I spend most of my time at sixth form, fangirling, listening to music, watching YouTube videos and being a total loser. I'm going to try posting every day, but chances are I will forget because I have the memory of a goldfish. If you like my blog then... What do you do on this site? I don't know, retweet? Like? Subscribe? Whatever you do when you like a blog I think you should do it. Thanks for reading, if you did actually read this!
Claire :)
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