The Sun Burns me and Amazon is a douche

I am burned. The sun is evil. I was out all day yesterday with my family, at a greyhound event, and I got sunburnt. It was quite a good day though I suppose. Had a burger and a cake and ice cream (I am gaining so much weight haha) and it was an okay day. Went for a lovely walk today with my dad, walked 2.3 ish miles so I am very proud of myself. Really tired now though, got to use my weights still today because I am going to work harder to lose some weight. (I shall say no more about that though as I keep telling you that I'm going to lose weight and then I don't but I'm really going to work hard this time)

My exams are almost over. Only one more left, which is maths C2. But I do have like two weeks to revise for it as I have half term and the exam is not until the 6th June. I don't think I've done very well at all in the exams that I have done. I'm pretty sure I have failed. I know that I'm going to drop out after my exams are over, but I did want to do well and I'm really disappointed in myself. But there's nothing I can do about it now, I just have to look forward and keep trying.

Unfortunately, City of Heavenly Fire, which I preordered ages ago, will not be arriving until more than 10 days after the release date because amazon is a douche. I am seriously annoyed about this because the whole plot will probably be spoiled for me by the internet and my friends (because lish normally does spoil the endings of books for me haha) and I have a week off this week which would have been ideal for me to be able to read it. But now it will probably arrive on the day that I have my exam and I won't be able to read it that day because my exam is in the afternoon. Ugggghhhhh. I bloody preordered it! This is not fair!

I finally forced my friend Amy to read the Fault in Our Stars. I'm not really sure how she feels about it. She texted me when she finished it and she seemed pretty annoyed about how it ended. Although most people are annoyed about what happens in TFIOS. I hope she didn't cry too much haha!

5sos' album comes out next month and I really want to preorder it, but I have no money and I owe my parents money right now too. Life is annoying. I am going to get my hair done on Friday, it's booked at the hairdressers and I'm really looking forward to it.

I hope you are all having a wonderful week and if you've preordered anything from amazon then I hope you get it on time. Stay in school. Don't do drugs. Love you!

Claire :)

The Terrible Stress of Exams and my Plans for Today

I had my second exam on Thursday, it was my sociology one. Unfortunately I feel as though I failed it. Really bad. I had a bit of a breakdown after the exam was over because I messed up a 24 mark question and I really wasn't sure about the others at all. I know that lots of people get stressed during exams and that a lot of people have to deal with a lot worse and I feel really bad that I got so worked up over it. But it just got to me and it put me into that state of mind where I feel like I might do something stupid so I went home. I am going to try not to get worked up over any of the other exams but I have a feeling that I will because of how worked up I got over the two that I've done so far. I am pretty sure that when I get my results in August they will all be U's. And I'm trying to convince myself that it will be okay and that if I fail it's not the end of the world. But know that that's exactly how I would feel, like it's the end of my world because I failed and I am a failure and I'm never going to succeed at anything in life.

Yesterday was a tough day, not for me but for one of my best friends. I won't name names because of privacy and stuff. But she basicly had a breakdown and we both left sixth form and went to the park and just chilled for like two hours. I always hate it when my friends are upset and I always try to be there for them. She's going through so much right now and I think she just needs someone to talk to about it, to get it off her chest. I really hope that things get better for her soon.

Today is the day I go back to blonde and I'm really excited. I shall be going to the city to get the colour stripping stuff, I really hope that it actually works and doesn't leave me with gross hair. So it's the last day (or more half a day) of me having purple hair. I'm saying goodbye to it, it will be missed. But I am glad I'm going back to blonde (not for the reasons that Elli thinks you dirty girl) and I'm dragging my sister with me to get the stuff and she's going to buy me a cup of tea while we're out.

I hope you all have a wonderful day, I know that I shall. Good luck with exams if you're taking some anytime soon, love you all. Stay in school, don't do drugs.

Claire :)

Starting Exams from Hell and changing my Hair because I can so Deal with it

Started my exams yesterday. Had psychology. Didn't go too well. Bit disappointed. After it had finished tonnes of people were like "that was so easy" and "I aced that" and "it wasn't too bad at all" and I was like "I have failed." But I guess it's okay. I am a liar. It is not okay. People might think it is since I'm dropping out of sixth form after AS, but I still want to do well. I don't wan to fail. I know that I'm not going to do great, which is one of the reasons I am dropping out, but I'd still like to do kind of okay. I've got my first sociology exam tomorrow and I am so scared. I don't think I have revised enough and I'm pretty sure that will show in my results in August. But I'm trying to be positive. Although I am more of a pessimist so I'm finding it difficult to look on the bright side right now. I already know that all my friends are going to do amazing because they're all so smart and good at A Levels and it kind of makes me feel sad that I am the first of all my friends to kind of "give up" and I feel like they all think that I am pathetic because I "can't be bothered to carry on" or that I'm "too lazy to carry on" or something. I hope that they don't actually think that, but sometimes I'm worried that that's what they think.

In other news I shall be going back to blonde. *que dramatic gasps of shock* I know. It's been a while since I had my natural hair colour (not actually that long, only since like October) and it's going to be so weird once it's blonde again since I'm used to having it red or purple now. But it will be nice to go back. No more money spent of hair dye, not more long processes of dying it. It's been fun having different coloured hair, but I did kind of always plan on one day going back to my natural colour and I guess that's now. It may not be a while until it's back because I'm kind of broke right now, but once I can afford it I shall do it. Goodbye purple hair, I shall miss you. Another reason I kind of want to go back is because apparently the guy I like said that he preferred me with blonde hair (I'd just like to point out that this is in no way the main reason for me going back to blonde, it was just a bit of an incentive) and another guy said that he didn't like the purple too. So I shall be blonde again.

Now going to get back to revision. If any of you are doing exams then good luck, I hope you do well. Speak to you soon! Stay in school and don't do drugs. Love you!

Claire :)